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On Another Shore: A Photo Story Poem for Brother and Sister

Hayes enjoys his time in the ocean.
Corrie during what would become our last family of four vacation in June 2019, the week of Hayes’ ninth birthday.

You are always with me.

We walk on different shores.

When you dig

your toes into the sand,

know I dig my toes in the sand

on another shore.

Hayes chose to avoid going as deep in the ocean as he normally does. He told me, “I don’t want to get eaten by sharks.”
John and I took Corrie for her first and only solo child trip in April 2019.

I know you think you’ll forget

my voice, but you hear it in

your dreams. How can you

forget my laughter when I

hide so many things in

your closet and on your

shelves? You’ll find more

everyday. We’re always

one-on-one, but we

walk in different ways.

Hayes searched for seashells and rocks that looked like they were from another planet.
Corrie walked further away from the water as it was not warm enough yet to swim in during April 2019.

As you search for black rocks

with holes from the ocean’s floor,

throw them back into the water,

and believe I walk on another

shore. I’ve searched for sharks’

teeth in the same sand as you,

but we must walk in different

tides until the long years

end, and bring you to a

promised shore.

I am never lost, and you’re the one

who believes I am here because

you say my name more than

anyone, and in your imagination

others shoot down as nothing

more than a boy’s mind long

gone, I know the truth. You

remember me, and when you

speak of gorilla kings,

I know you disguise from others

what you think and feel.

You are always with me.

We walk on different shores.

My toes dig into the sand

as you investigate

seashells in the water.

See how the tide pulls

sand over pieces

and parts that cling to the

shore. Some dull in their

gray from the constant

tide, but sunset lines still

come across pieces of

some shells.

Hayes jumps in the pool as Corrie cheers him on our last ever family beach trip in June 2019.

I am always with you, brother,

just so you know.

I just walk on another shore.

By Rebecca T. Dickinson

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